These couple of weeks with summer being back, I realized something different within me and I believe it reflects on how other people look at my vitiligo.
I have to be honest and say that there were days during summer that I would struggle with people staring at my legs while wearing a dress or shorts. Of course, there are days that I can’t care less, but I also have days where I feel like turning around and asking, “what are you looking at?!” Eventhough, I know that its giving more importance to people than needed.
But I realized lately that something within me changed. Maybe being more conscious about my skin, being more body positive and being able to embrace even more my double colored skin, made people not to care less either.
I came to the believe that everything changes when it starts from the inside. I am that one who had to start looking at it differently, I am the one who had to stop struggling, because the suffering was only for me and nobody else. And once I started working on that, people stopped looking. I am pretty sure that is not 100% percent true, but now I feel that the more I embrace it, the less people look at my skin in a negative way and the less people I caught staring.
It was always easier when growing up with the same people and everybody being used to my skin. But now I realize that I have more love towards my vitiligo the more I put my self out there feeling more confident when meeting new people.
There is a phrase that I just read that says: You become what you belive, you attract what you feel and you create what you imagine. And I couldn't agree more, the universe responses to our vibe and attitude that we put out there. So, it is up to us how we want the world to see us. What we want people to actually see when they look at us. Is it your fears? Or is it what makes you unique and makes you YOU?
Andrea Islas
Instagram: @MiVitiligoyYo
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